first, i want him to know that i am really sorry because my attitude or my bad words for him. i don't want we ended up our relationship like this. we used to be a best friend before we have a relationship. you used gave advices and you used supported of all my choices. but, after we have a relationship we really know the real us, the real attitude that we have when we don't know about it before. we used shared our secrets together, our first kiss, our first date and anything else. maybe you think i'm forget all about it but in my deepest heart i'm still remember every seconds that i spent with you. if i'm feeling like that, why am i not get back with you? i know this is a question you have in your head. the reason is i'm really sorry to ended up our relationship like this i meant we ended up like there's nothing happened between us and now we act like we never met before. i'm leaving you without a smile in my face when i said goodbye. i'm really sorry. i do loved you but it was a very loooooong time ago when you never used your hands to punch my face, spit my face and saying a really bad words to me. why you changed 180 degrees? what happened with you? why do you do this to me? if you didn't do that i know until now i'm still be your gf and you still saying i'm your gf with proud. i am really patient when we have arguments. do you remember who the first person give up and saying "I'm sorry" when we have arguments? yes, it was me. do you remember when you said "i'm sorry, i was cheat with your best friend and i never told you about that. but, don't get angry because we ended up for long time ago" what's my reaction? do you remember? am i punch you IN FRONT OF ALL OF OUR FRIENDS? no, i am not do that. you didn't see it because I'm in my house and you're in your house but you can ask my cousin, my lil sister&my aunt what's my reaction when you said like that and they will answer you like this "she's not crying when you said that but she smile in front of us and said 'mom, he's cheating with my best friend and you're right when you said maybe there is something else between my best friend with him and this is it he told me everything' and i was like 'so, you're gonna break up with him or what? you must do something to make this clear' do you know what she said? 'no, mom i'm not gonna break up with him. i'm really love him and i know he did that because i was never cared about him that's why he's cheating with my best friend' oh God, you must see her. she is really a strong person ever" after all this story that i never told you before. do you really feel bad? this is the girl who you said a bitch, a sucker, a stupid girl did something like that just for you. i think thats the reason why i still in my choice that i WON'T come back again. ever.
for clear up all of our problems i have something to tell you. please don't quip me on Twitter it's really hurt for me to see it. please, i know i'm such a bitch that did like this to you but i can't handle it anymore. so i think just it. goodbye. may the happiness always fills up your life.
lots of love,
Me
